Gay story: Zac’s story – Chapter 12
Author: Zac22
We went out and had a good time at dinner. I was still reserved about dating. I was terrified actually. I liked him; I really liked him, but I loved Shawn. Maybe this wasn’t what I wanted. Maybe Logan would cheat, maybe he would just want to sleep with me and be done, maybe he wanted to get really serious really fast and I end up getting hurt again.
He clearly noticed my reservations about dating him. We had fun at dinner and we talked about family, friends, interests. He’s a big football fan, only real football and not American football. He likes American football as well but made a point to say real or American because he was very opposed to saying soccer. He also likes other sports and we shared that as well as interest in movies and some music. He was out to his friends for the most part and his sister but not his brother, parents, or the rest of his family. They are very Irish and very Catholic so he’s afraid to tell them just yet.
After dinner we went to a movie and he held my hand through a lot of it. It felt really good to be held or even touched in an affectionate way again. I never felt affectionate or romantic with any of the guys since Shawn. They were just sex. Holding hands doesn’t seem like much, but just the simple touch of another man is a lot.
After the movie he drove me home. It was about 11 at night and he parked his car. “I had a really good time tonight. Did you?”
“Yeah, it was fun.”
“You seemed a little uneasy. Like you are still unsure. It’s ok if you are-“
“No, I mean yeah.” I cut him off, “I still feel a little weird, but it’s got nothing to do with you.”
“Alright then. Do you want to talk about it? I don’t want to make you upset, but maybe if you talk about how you’re feelin’ you might feel better or at least I’d know what’s going on so I can try to make you feel a bit better.”
I had no intention of talking to him about how I was feeling or what I was thinking, but he was so sweet and so charming I just started to spill, “Well it’s mainly Shawn, my ex. I’m not still in love with him. Maybe I am a little, but it’s nothing to worry about. I want nothing to do with him.” I was rambling pretty quick.
“Woah, slow down. What happened with him? I know he cheated, but what happened?”
“Well, we lived together for a year. Half way through living together he reconnected with an old friend. One week, I went to see a friend during break and Shawn and his friend slept together. I came back and he told me and Randy and I moved out. That’s basically what happened with that.”
“I’m really sorry” He held my hand as he talked, “So is he all that’s bothering you?”
“No, he’s not the problem. It’s what he did and what I did after.”
“What do you mean?”
“Well I kinda told you before that I had a rough time after we broke up.” I paused. “After I left Shawn, I was in bad shape and started sleeping around. I was with a lot of guys to just feel good, but none ever did.” I had tears developing in my eyes. “Randy stopped me as I was getting out of control, got me tested a few times since and made sure I didn’t sleep with anyone and luckily I didn’t catch anything. I must sound like a total loser slut.”
“No, not at all. You were hurt and you lost it for a bit. So that’s what’s bugging you?”
“Yeah, I guess I’m just scared of what this means.” As I said that I motioned my hand to show that ‘this’ meant the two of us.
“Zac, I don’t know what hell you went through being cheated on. I also have no idea what hell you went through after with those other guys. What I do know is that it only makes you human.” He paused for a second. “I’m not Shawn, and I’m not those other guys. I understand that you don’t want to get hurt and I promise you I will do everything I can to make sure THAT doesn’t happen.
I would never dream of hurting you, I would never ever cheat, and I’m not interested in sleeping with you and leaving.” He pulled my hand slightly to get me to make eye contact. “I really like you and I’d like to see if this can work. I don’t want meaningless sex or a casual fling or something. When I’m with a man, I want to be truly with him.
I’d like to see you and find out if we could be together. I have no intention of getting physical until we know we can be together and really work. I don’t want to use you or hurt you. If this is too soon then I’ll wait. If you need time, you’ve got it. It’ll take everything I’ve got to endure it, but I’ll wait for whenever you’re ready.”
As he was saying all this, I felt calm and the fear of getting hurt faded. He didn’t want to hurt me and I believed he wouldn’t. Maybe it wouldn’t work, but he made me feel like no matter what happens, it won’t end badly. As he continued talking and told me he’d wait for me to be ready, something just came over me and I just said it, “Kiss me.”
“What?”
“Kiss me.”
“Are you sure? I thought you were worried-“
“I am, but not about you. I wanna try this. I wanna see if we work. Kiss me.”
He put his left hand on the side of my head and face and guided me toward him. He met my lips with his and kissed me softly. His lips were soft and sweet.
He broke away from me after maybe ten seconds of kissing. “How about I walk you inside.”
“Ok” I replied softly.
We got to my apartment door, “I’ll call you tomorrow?”
“Alright”
He put his hand on my face and neck and kissed me again briefly, “Goodnight Zac” he said with a smile and walked back to his car.
Two weeks went by and we were now on our fifth date. He made us a romantic dinner at his apartment. He was living in a cramped one bedroom, but he didn’t have to worry about a roommate. After dinner we sat on his couch and watched TV. We cuddled on the couch for a little while before we began to kiss. His facial hair was scruffy but still soft and insanely sexy. As we kissed, my hand began to wander. I felt his arms and back, his chest and gradually I moved my hand to the crotch of his jeans.
He stopped kissing and pulled my hand up to his shoulder and away from his pants. “Not yet,” he whispered.
“Why not? Don’t you want me?”
“I absolutely want you. I just don’t want to rush things.”
“We’re not rushing.”
He sat up and started to explain, “I haven’t been with a man in over a year. The last guy I slept with ended things because it was too fast. We had just met and hit it off. I didn’t know him that well but we ended up sleeping together and the next day he says he doesn’t think we can work, that we got physical too fast and that it couldn’t work out. I felt disgusting. I felt used and dirty. It would have been one thing if we both planned on just some fling but he made me feel like we had a real possibility to be together.”
“I’m not that guy, just like you aren’t Shawn. You know I’m not going to leave you.”
“I know, but after that I made the decision to make sure I was in a serious committed relationship before going to bed with another man.” He waited a second, “How about this. We wait two more weeks and five more dates. If we are committed and serious still then we can talk about taking the relationship to the next level. Is that ok?”
“Yeah” I smiled, “That sounds great. You’re so amazing.”
Logan laughed, “Why’s that?”
“You’re sweet and romantic and you really care about making everything perfect.” We smiled and went back to cuddling and watching TV before I went home for the night.
A week later I got another set of test results in the mail. Clean and clear and since it’d been over 6 months since having sex and had had several tests I was assured that there was nothing to be found. Logan decided that he would also be tested just to be safe and assure me that he was just as clean.
“So another week huh?” Randy asked from the kitchen. I had just woken up and walked out of my room.
“What?” I asked back as I plopped on the couch, legs crossed, and turned on the TV.
“Until you and Logan get your freak on.” Randy said with a devious laugh.
I rubbed my eyes and shook my head, “Whatever perv.”
“Hey I’m not the one hangin around in my underwear.” Randy replied taking a seat on the couch.
“I just got up, give me a break.”
“Just sayin. It’s almost noon.”
“I got home late.”
“Yeah and who were you with?”
“Logan” I answered with a smile.
“Hence the question, you have just one more week, right?” Randy smiled as he had maneuvered his way to winning the discussion.
“Yeah”
“You goin to his place or ours? Cuz I’ve gotten used to the quite at night.”
“I don’t know. We aren’t even necessarily going to have sex. We are just going to discuss it then.”
“Yeah right, you two have been dating three weeks and have been hanging out for two and a half months before that. If you manage not to sleep with him next week then I’ll pay you fifty bucks.”
“I’m not gonna bet you fifty bucks I won’t have sex with Logan.”
“Oh, no bet. I’m so sure you’re gonna sleep with him that I’ll pay you fifty if you don’t and we’re all even if you do. But I know you will.”
“You think real highly of my self control.” I said sarcastically.
“Well, I’ve known you long enough to know that as long as you like the guy and want in his pants, if he’ll let you, you’re getting in his pants.”
“Great, my best friend thinks I’m a slut.”
“Woah, I never said that. I know what you like and I know that you like Logan. And yeah you also like sex.” Randy laughed. My cell phone started ringing Logan’s ringtone, It’s Gotta Be You by the Backstreet Boys, and I jumped up to go answer it. “Wow, that is officially the gayest ringtone ever.” Randy laughed, “Tell Logan I say hi and put some clothes on.”
“Hi” Logan said as I opened the door.
“Wow, you look great. Uh, should I change?”
“No, you look perfect.”
Logan was wearing a nice blue button down shirt with a black and navy tie. His hair looked wet like he must have put gel in it though it. He had buzzed hair so he couldn’t do anything with it but simply make it look wet and spiked. He looked incredible. I was just wearing a polo and khakis. It was a nice polo sure but I looked like crap compared to him.
“So where are we going that you’re looking so nice?”
“Dinner and a movie” He answered.
I was confused by the answer but especially when we pulled into the same restaurant we went to on our first date, “So does this mean we are going to the same movie too?” I asked jokingly.
“No, but the same theater. I figured it’s our one month anniversary, why not mirror our first date?”
“You may just be the sweetest guy in the world.”
“I doubt that, but I do what I can.” Logan smiled as we walked into the restaurant.
We had a great dinner and went to a movie where Logan held my hand the whole time. After the movie we got out around 11 PM and went back to his apartment.
Before he unlocked his door he stopped, held my hand and looked at me. “Zac, I’d like you to spend the night with me. We don’t have to get physical if you don’t want to, but It’d mean a lot if you’d stay here tonight.”
I smiled, “I’d love to.”
We went inside and into his bedroom. I sat on the bed and faced him with my arms toward him to welcome him in. He dimmed the lights and closed the door before walking to the side of the bed and kissed me.
I loosened his tie and began to unbutton his shirt. I got it mostly undone when he lifted off my shirt and began kissing my neck. With one hand he braced himself and the other he guided my back to the bed. Leaning over me he continued kissing my neck and I undid the last buttons of his shirt. He stood up and removed the shirt and tossed it to the side with his tie. He then removed his undershirt.
Logan had a strong thick frame. He had strong pec muscles and strong arms but not ripped nor extremely large. He was strong but pudgy like I had noticed before. Now I could see he was not tubby or fat as I could see where his muscles were but he had some thickness added to him so he was I suppose, stocky. He had short hair in the middle of his chest and a little bit just above each nipple. His hair was red-brown but more brown by his nipples and pits and more red on his chest and under his naval.
He kicked off his shoes and lifted each of my legs and removed mine. He leaned back over me and began kissing me again. I reached down and undid his belt. He unbuttoned my pants and pulled them off of me. I climbed up into bed and he undid his pants and joined me.
He crawled on top of me kissing me as our hands explored each other’s bodies. I rolled him over and kissed down his neck. I moved slowly to kissing his chest and to his left nipple. Licking it softly flicking it with my tongue. His breathing became steep and I proceeded to kiss down his chest and stomach while rubbing his body with my right hand and his boxer-briefs with my left. I kissed down to his waistband where my chin was being poked. I lifted the waistband and lowered it revealing his around six to seven inches surrounded by shortly cut red-brown hair.
I slid his boxer-briefs down his thighs with my left hand while resting my right hand on his stomach. I lowered myself to the base of his penis and ran my tongue up to the tip before engulfing his thick cock making Logan breathe audibly and moan softly. I rolled my tongue around the head and bobbed my head slightly for a while and his moans and pants got louder and steeper.
He grunted and bent his legs slightly making me pull away. He immediately brought me back up to him and on my back. He began kissing me deeply as he kicked off his underwear. “God I want you” He panted.
“You’ve got me,” I panted back.
“I’ve got condoms over here somewhere.” He scrambled to his bedside drawers.
I put my hand on his back “Don’t bother.”
“Are you sure?” he looked back at me.
“Yeah, fuck me.” I panted nodding my head.
He returned to me, kissed me while sliding my underwear down. He got up to his knees and pulled my underwear off and I moved my legs to his sides. He kissed my stomach and down to my penis. He began to suck me as I dropped my head back and relaxed my arms over my head and at my sides. He then lifted my legs up raising my hips from the bed. I then felt his tongue across my hole. I moaned and closed my eyes as his tongue probed around my ass. He spit once and rolled his tongue around my hole once more. He got back up to his knees and lifted my legs pulling me to him. My hips were resting on his legs as he entered me slowly. The tip of his cock was inside me as I grunted and wrapped my legs around his waist.
“Are you alright?” He asked.
“Uhhh, yeah” I panted.
He pushed his hips forward slowly as I felt him get deeper inside of me. It felt tighter and more painful than with a condom since a condom has lube. It also felt more exciting. He was fully inside me and leaned forward to kiss me. We kissed briefly, he sat up and moved his hips back and forth. I grunted with every slow thrust. He gradually thrust faster and my panting increased with him.
He lifted my left leg up to his shoulder giving him more room to move. I continued moaning with every thrust and his left hand began to pump my cock. Sweat was building on his body and mine. He panted and turned me on my side. He came out f me and turned me to my stomach. He moved up onto me and returned inside of me. I turned my head to the side where we kissed as he slid in and out of me. He then held himself up hovering over my back and thrust fast and faster. I moaned louder and louder with every thrust.
Grunting into his pillow I felt myself being pushed to the edge. “I’m gonna cum” I moaned.
“Alright, I’m almost there.” Logan grunted back.
We turned to the side and Logan continued thrusting inside me as I began jacking myself. He wrapped his arm around my stomach pulling me into him. I pushed myself onto him back and forth. He put his head near mine, kissed my neck, and rested his chin on my shoulder. His scruffy cheek against my neck, It felt amazing. The combination of him being inside of me, his arm around me, his soft/scruffy face against mine; I couldn’t contain myself. It was ecstasy. I grunted hard and cum began to pour out of me onto his bed. As I was cumming he kissed my neck softly and then thrust fast in and out, in and out, grunted and thrust hard inside and I felt his hot cum unload inside of me. He thrust a few more times; each time more cum flowed inside of me.
He remained inside of me momentarily as we relaxed and caught our breathe. His head rest on mine. I put my left hand up on the side of his face stroking his scruff and guiding him to my lips where we kissed again and again.
We got up and went into his bathroom and into the shower to rinse off. We returned to bed and got under the sheets. We left the blankets at our waste exposing our upper bodies as we were still breathing fairly heavy and sweating lightly. We proceeded to make out holding each other’s naked bodies. Eventually calming down, I rolled over and began to go to sleep. Logan laid his head next to mine, his chin and cheek against the back of my neck, arm holding my, and our legs tangled. I took my left hand and hugged his arm clasping his fingers in mine and faded off to sleep.
“What’s this?” Randy asked as I had tossed a 50-dollar bill in his lap on my way to my room.
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