“I have an idea!” She sat up really quickly and held her head. “I can get Marky to bring us taco bell! Or even better he can drive us there and back!”
“Bitch he’s not coming anywhere near my house nor am I getting in his car. God knows he would posion my taco and put pictures of me throwing up on Facebook.” I started walking upstairs for more liquor. “What do you want? Rum or Gin?”
“I want Marky to take us to taco belllll, but if you’re gonna be a dick about this I guess Rum.” She laid back down texting who I could only assume was Houston.
I came back downstairs with some Captain Morgan and knew Jenna was up to no good when she had her pouty face on.
“Don’t be mad.”
“Good luck. He’s on his way isn’t he?”
“He really cares about me Jason, and he’s grown up too. He would never do anything to harm you and has constant guilt about what he did whenever he sees me.”
“Im sure.” I poured both of us another shot.
“Look hun, he said he would drive us there and back. He won’t say a word and if he makes you mad I will never impose this on you ever again.” She came over and hugged me. Jenna never asked a lot out of me but I could tell she was really happy about her relationship and just wanted things to work for her. “I’ll be nicer to Johnny if you say yessss.”
“You swear he won’t say a word?”
“Not even to order food he already texted me his order!” She shoved her phone in my face. She was the whitest of white girl wasted.
“I can’t convince you otherwise can i?”
“Oh Jason I love you so much thank you!” She clinged onto me and took her shot. “To being the best friend ever!”
A half hour later Jenna’s phone vibrated signaling that Houston was here. We stumbled out of the house arm in arm and I locked my door. She got in the front seat and I laid down in the back.
“MARKY IM SO GLAD YOU’RE HERE!” She screamed.
“JENNA YOU’RE SCREAMING!” I yelled just as loud not because I was drunk but because I was about to make Houston regret his decision
“I AM NOT!”
“YOU ARE TOO!”
“WHATEVER TO TACO SMELL!”
Houston didn’t say a word like he said and began driving. I couldn’t see much because I was laying down but I could tell Jenna was all over her boyfriend whispering something. It felt like an eternity before we got there. Half because I was gone, half because I had to listen to murmurs and giggling.
“WE’RE HEREEEE!” Jenna looked back at me laying down. “GET UP BITCH IM SO FUCKING HUNGRY.”
I got up and walked ahead of the adoring couple. They would order their own food and I would get my own I figured.
“Hello and welcome to Taco Bell Jon’s boyfriend.” Leena Patel, one of the many school gossips was at the cash register.
“We’re not together.” I flatted. “Just give me what I always get.”
“If you say so. 3 tacos, a drink, and an order of Potatoes. That’s $5” We were definitely here way too much because she knew that by heart. I swiped my card and moved aside to pour myself a soda.
“I want…this is too hard I can barely see!” Jenna giggled. “Baby order for us pleaseeeeeeee.”
Houston gave her a glare because all 3 of us knew he wasn’t supposed to say anything.
“Oh it’s fine Jason understands how gone I am.” She smiled at me.
Houston and I looked at each other. I shrugged and went to get a straw.
He sighed in relief and ordered what I thought would just be food for him and her.
What seemed like an eternity of staring at the celling we picked up our food.
“Enjoy! Tell Jon he needs to sign up for Mr. Wilson next month!!” Leena was determined to get a confirmation out of me.
“We’re not dating, I wouldn’t be drunk on a Thursday if he had anything to say about it.” I laughed as I walked to the exit.
“MARKY THAT’S A LOT OF FOOD IS THAT FOR JUST US?”
“No it’s for everyone else. Remember?”
I knew it. Jenna was prioritizing her new fuckstick over me. She was now officially lying to me. She had no intention of staying over she probably would of just snuck out when I passed out if I refused to go to Taco Bell.
Everyone was quiet in the as we approached my place.
“Well have fun you two. Houston it was a pleasure as always.” I said bitterly as I got out of the car.
“Sweetie wait.” Jenna hopped out of the car mouthing for Houston to wait.
“Don’t fucking say anything.”
“Honey he wants to come to the party to show you he’s sorry!”
“Don’t give me that bullshit Jenna we both know you’re lying. You had no intention of staying tonight. You were gonna sneak out later and go see him.”
“Jason stop I’m serious there are like 30 people at his place waiting on us!”
“What on earth are you even thinking right now? You think I would even want to go?” I dropped my bag to the ground and was ready to cry. “You’re lying to me now. After 2 years and knowing how hard it is for me to trust anyone you do this to me.”
“I didn’t lie, we both knew about the party and he’s doing it for you.”
“You know what happened Jenna. I can’t forgive him.”
“I…..” she played with her hair again “I just want you two to get along because he’s been really sweet and nice and he really hates what he did back then.”
“Because of YOU Jenna. Because he likes YOU. He doesn’t care about my feelings, he cares about YOURS.” I picked up my bag and walked away. “Just get the fuck out of here, enjoy whoever’s there and make sure you call me a faggot behind my back like you did 3 years ago. It’ll be like i was there.”
“Jasonnnnnnnnnn” Jenna tried to get out of the car but was in no condition to do so, those last few shots really must of done her in.
I walked up to my house and fumbled with my keys. I kept struggling to find my house key between my impaired vision and the tears coming out of my eyes. After 3 minutes I felt someone grab the keys and open my door. Houston picked up my bag and guided me downstairs.
“What the fuck are you doing you piece of shit get the fuck out of my house.”
“Jason stop doing this.”
“WHY NOW? WHY OUR LAST YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL DO YOU FINALLY HAVE BALLS TO APOLOGIZE?” It was over, the tears were coming out and i had absolutely no control over my emotions.
“Because of Her….”
“Same old fucking Mark Houston, thinks he can sweet talk everyone into having the perfect life.” I found my bearings as i took a seat. “You dropped me when it was convenient for you, when it made your life easier. You didn’t give a FUCK about me and you never did.” The memories were flowing back like they always did, stabbing me over and over. “GET OUT.”
‘I’m going to figure out how to apologize Jason….just know i’m sorry.” He trailed off as he ascended the stairs.
I sat in silence for a solid 10 minutes after i heard the car turn on and leave. Half because i was too drunk to bother, half because i hadn’t cried this much in a few years. I always thought it took alot to break me, that i was stronger and smarter to not have people mess with my head now. It turns out that was wrong, i’m still the same vulnerable idiot that was tormented throughout middle school.
My phone rang and i answered it after letting it ring 4 or 5 times.
“What Jon?” I tried to sound like i wasn’t a drunk blubbering mess.
“What did Jenna do?” I heard him pick up his keys, that meant he was already walking out of the restaurant to come see me.