“Come for me, sexy Silas.” Josh said, spanking my ass quickly before returning his hand to my cock.
His teeth locked onto my shoulder smothering his scream as he came. The feeling of his cock pulsating into my ass and his hand on cock finally sent me over the edge. Josh pulled out of me and gently unclipped the ball clips, I inhaled sharply at the pain.
“Clean that.” Francis said, reminding us that he was there.
I frowned at him then bent down to clean my come off the floor as he enjoyed watching me do. He stood up, patted me on the head and went to his room as Josh picked me up and took me to his room. There seemed to be a pre-arranged agreement that I sleep with Josh. He took me into the shower and began washing both of us. He kissed my shoulders, my neck and my back as he washed me. I didn’t resist him when he dried me and then took me to his bed.
****
I woke up the next morning with his weight on my back, he was gently stoking my ass. I moved and turned over so that I could face him. He kissed me.
“Thank you for last night. I know it was for Francis and we won’t do it again but thank you. It was amazing.” He said.
I felt the blush rising in my cheeks and turned away from him. He kissed me again.
“Do you enjoy this lifestyle you have with Francis? He told me you were submissive when he hired me but I didn’t think it was like that. Last night was intense. I didn’t think he’d just tell you to do it like that. This is your virginity and you just allowed him to give it away for you. If you like this then it will be hard for you to find someone who cares for you so much as to only hurt you as much as you can stand.”
“I won’t look for anyone else. I only do this because Francis tells me too. I don’t like it.”
“You don’t like it at all? Why do you do it then? It seems to turn you on.”
“Francis turns me on. Francis likes this. Without Francis, I won’t do it. I hate feeling out of control.”
“Was last night ok for you, then? With me?”
“That was for Francis, you know that. I’ve only said no to him once, and that was about him fucking me. I left him over it. He promised never to ask me about it again. I could have said no to last night, he wouldn’t have made me do it.”
“But he knew you wouldn’t say no. He’d already pushed you so far into it, it would have been harder to stop at the point when he asked you than it would have been to continue.”
I looked at the clock, realising I had to go to work this morning. Josh didn’t understand the relationship I had with Francis and I couldn’t blame him; no matter how I tried to explain it, in my head, I didn’t fully understand it. I didn’t like Francis controlling my life, I didn’t like feeling out of control but it did turn me on. The feel of the collar around my neck, the way he spanked me, the way he made me come, the way he made me lick it up; it embarrassed me but I couldn’t deny that some part of me enjoyed it.
“I have to get ready for work.”
I got out of the bed and left to go to my room. Francis was laying on the bed, awake. I pulled the blanket down and straddled his hip, grabbing the massage oil. He smiled at me as I began my massage.
“I didn’t think you’d do this today.” He said quietly. “Did you play around some more after he took you to bed?”
I shook my head, asking him to turn over.
“You did enjoy it didn’t you?”
“Yes.”
He sighed, as if relieved that I’d enjoyed it. I went to run his bath and then helped him into the bath and washed him. He took hold of my chin after I’d dried him.
“I love you, Silas, you know that don’t you?”
“I know that, Francis.”
“And I know that you love me, even if you never tell me.”
“I’m still here with you. Love is giving your life to someone else. You have everything I am.”
“And thats how I know you love me.” He kissed me. “I would like to hear you say it though.”
I got him dressed and took him into the living room, Josh was preparing breakfast. The routine was back in play after last night’s break of tradition. I went to get myself ready and then ate the food Josh had left for me. Francis watched me eat as he pushed his food around his plate. I kissed him before I left, whispered that I loved him and left.
****
“What’s going on? Who are these people?” I asked going into the house, Josh’s hands were on my shoulders, not allowing me to move away from the door. There were people going in and out of Francis’ room, of my room. Francis’ doctor was just leaving the room. “Is Francis ill?”
“Silas.” Josh gripped my chin and pulled me to look at him. “Francis died this morning, while I was out shopping. I came back and found him.”
“Francis. He was ok this morning.”
“I know.”
“I want to see him.”
“Ok.”
The people left the room as we went in, Josh’s hands still resting on my shoulders. I looked over Francis’ body, he was wearing a different top to the one I had chosen for him this morning. I pulled up his sleeve, there were fresh track marks on his arm. I looked up at Josh.
“When I came in, I found the drugs around his bed. He was probably in pain, just took too much. He wouldn’t have done this on purpose. I clean up and changed his top. There won’t have to be an autospy, the doctor had predicted a death in this time frame if he came off the medication and so wasn’t surprised by it.”
I nodded.
“He wanted to be cremated. Have you phoned his parents? They’ll want to see him before anyone takes him away.”
“They’re on their way. He went through everything with me, he didn’t want you to worry, you know he didn’t want you to have to do all this.”
I nodded.
“He hands over responsibility of me to you last night and then dies today.”
“It was accidental.” Josh took my arm and led me to his room. “I’ll get you some fresh clothes, take a shower.”
As I sat on the bed, Francis’ doctor came in and sat next to me.
“If you need to talk to someone, just call me.”
I nodded. I didn’t need to talk, I just felt numb, it didn’t even seem real. He’d be in the living room, later, telling me to kneel down. This was just an interlude. Real life would continue soon and real life had Francis in it.
“I’d feel better if you had a HIV test. Francis talked about you since the time he met you at school, almost ten years ago now. I kept asking him to bring you to have a test. Maybe you’ve had one with your own doctor?”
I shook my head.
“Ok, so come and see me. Anytime, after hours if you want. Come and I’ll sort it all out.” He patted my knee and then left the room.
Josh came back into the room and handed me some clothes and a towel. I stood up to go into the bathroom, Josh put his hand on my shoulder and handed me my collar then he left.
****
The room was empty when I got out of the shower. Francis’ room was empty as well. Empty of people anyway. Josh was cooking in the kitchen, he smiled at me as he watched me walking from the living room to the bedroom and back again. I couldn’t settle, I couldn’t sit down, it felt wrong. There was no routine, no orders. I had nothing I had to do.
“Silas.”
I turned to him.
“Kneel down and stay down.”
I stared at him.
“Kneel down.” He repeated firmly.
“I need to be naked first and you shouldn’t repeat yourself.”