Me: I’m home. I loved our date too. I’d like another, if that’s okay? Can I see you again soon?
Alpha: Yes
Me: When?
Alpha: Later today? Come to the diner around one and I’ll make you lunch. We can hang out before I have to go to work.
My spirit sank and my heart raged jealously when I suddenly remembered that my perfect human boyfriend was also a professional Dominant who would be spending time with other submissive’s that weren’t me. Did he find any of them attractive? Did he enjoy their submission or did it feel like work to him? Did he fuck any of them? I knew he said he didn’t date them but what if they requested sex during a scene, like I always did. What then? Was it cheating? Was I allowed to be upset if he was fucking someone else for his job? Was I allowed to know? I’d never thought to ask any of these questions before but now I was getting too attached and I had to know. Should I ask now? Would it ruin everything? Would he change his mind about lunch?
Alpha: Baby? Did you fall asleep?
Adam texted when I failed to respond.
Me: A little, sorry. Yeah that sounds nice.
I finally answered, wanting to see him even more now that I’d felt how insecure his job was going to make me.
Alpha: 🙂 see you tomorrow baby and just come inside the dining area this time. I’ll be waiting for you. Sweet dreams puppy
I texted Adam goodnight and laid down to sleep as tendrils of loneliness and self doubt began to seep in, weaving around my heart and mind, reminding me of how my time with the human was both limited and precious. Because, despite the words of reassurance from Adam tonight, I knew the truth. I’d never be anyone’s forever. I shouldn’t let myself get anymore attached than I already was but I couldn’t help myself. Still I knew, he’d replace me, one day. That’s what alpha’s did.